Hazy sky, smoky clouds
Crystal clear faces
All beholds.
Seen places, longing emotions
Takes up paces
A story unfolds.
Ha! a movie
I wish, a fantasy.
A climatic treachery
Thrown at, in mockery.
A creepy lot
I pick you from,
With wretched plot
Another one.
In my head
A seeming mound,
An inception dread
Again around.
Oh, ugly dream!
Fade away.
Lure back in my stream,
Only as a fairy tale.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Deserved Runaway
The innumerous exams that we penned down are an instant reminder when we think about education. And the results or marks that were associated with it were a reflection of our intelligence? Or hard work? Or mugging capacity?
When I was in school these marks depicted a rather strange introspection of myself. It depicted what I deserve as a person! If I had got a 54 in Geography or a 91 in Math, it mirrored what I deserved to get in the respective subjects irrespective of the knowledge I had or the hard work I put in.
I simply mean to say that, even if I had sat all night and sweated out to dump all the books in my brain, I knew that I would end up getting the same results. Coz exams and percentages graded me what I ought to have. It was something predetermined and no efforts of mine will change that.
Now, past school, past college…. I seem to be out of exams and marks. Am I really out of it? Isn’t every small crisis in life is an exam by itself?? And the verdict is the results! And during each of these crisis the outcome is what I deserved completely.
I let people to influence me and take control of my decisions, my life… whether it turned out to be a blossoming rose or a slush hole, is what I got and is what I deserved.
I let my thoughts to control my decisions, my action… whether it led me to create once-in-a-lifetime opportunity or to throw that million-dollar opportunity, is what I did and is what I deserved.
I let my emotions to rule my decisions, my relationships… whether it turned out to be so sweet that I failed to forgive myself, or it turned out to be so sour that I failed to forget, is what it happened and is what I deserved.
And all through... I ran away, I ran away from myself!
When I was in school these marks depicted a rather strange introspection of myself. It depicted what I deserve as a person! If I had got a 54 in Geography or a 91 in Math, it mirrored what I deserved to get in the respective subjects irrespective of the knowledge I had or the hard work I put in.
I simply mean to say that, even if I had sat all night and sweated out to dump all the books in my brain, I knew that I would end up getting the same results. Coz exams and percentages graded me what I ought to have. It was something predetermined and no efforts of mine will change that.
Now, past school, past college…. I seem to be out of exams and marks. Am I really out of it? Isn’t every small crisis in life is an exam by itself?? And the verdict is the results! And during each of these crisis the outcome is what I deserved completely.
I let people to influence me and take control of my decisions, my life… whether it turned out to be a blossoming rose or a slush hole, is what I got and is what I deserved.
I let my thoughts to control my decisions, my action… whether it led me to create once-in-a-lifetime opportunity or to throw that million-dollar opportunity, is what I did and is what I deserved.
I let my emotions to rule my decisions, my relationships… whether it turned out to be so sweet that I failed to forgive myself, or it turned out to be so sour that I failed to forget, is what it happened and is what I deserved.
And all through... I ran away, I ran away from myself!
Monday, August 2, 2010
Awake from the Oblivion
The cloud of comfort awaits me,
Seducing me to stretch, like an imbecile feline.
The pillow of dreams remind me,
Of percepted fantasies, like an inception unfolded.
The blanket of warmth ropes me,
Wrapping me to immortality, like an invisible cloak.
I lay there to be immersed in the bliss of oblivion…
And the ticking clock awakes me to fall back to the stinging reality,
As I welcome yet another half-past-eleven sleepless night!
Seducing me to stretch, like an imbecile feline.
The pillow of dreams remind me,
Of percepted fantasies, like an inception unfolded.
The blanket of warmth ropes me,
Wrapping me to immortality, like an invisible cloak.
I lay there to be immersed in the bliss of oblivion…
And the ticking clock awakes me to fall back to the stinging reality,
As I welcome yet another half-past-eleven sleepless night!
Friday, July 2, 2010
Never Broken
You ripped my pounding heart with a sting ray whip,
I lost the mortal beat.
But I held on to you.
You spurted the blood wrath with a snake venom spit,
I writhed in the caustic splash.
But I held on to you.
You flurried the fiery flames with a dragon exhale,
I charred in the scorching burns.
But I held on to you.
I’m barbed… I’m agonized…I’m helpless as you shattered my way.
But I held on to you… and will hold on to you dear TRUST.
Coz I never forget to remember that once you made my day!
I lost the mortal beat.
But I held on to you.
You spurted the blood wrath with a snake venom spit,
I writhed in the caustic splash.
But I held on to you.
You flurried the fiery flames with a dragon exhale,
I charred in the scorching burns.
But I held on to you.
I’m barbed… I’m agonized…I’m helpless as you shattered my way.
But I held on to you… and will hold on to you dear TRUST.
Coz I never forget to remember that once you made my day!
Friday, May 7, 2010
Invincible She
Mightiness of a squadron,
She could dagger the feuds, she could move boulders,
Until emotions drown her!
Indomitable as a Spartan,
She could meek the kings, she could dare the devil,
Until desire engulf her!
Fierce as an Eagle,
She could vision the sun; she could brave the storms,
Until guilt smother her!
Unstoppable as a Volcano,
She could venge nature, she could wreak havoc,
Until love suffocate her!
Powerless as a Human,
She cower, cringe and wince,
Until death succumbs her!
She could dagger the feuds, she could move boulders,
Until emotions drown her!
Indomitable as a Spartan,
She could meek the kings, she could dare the devil,
Until desire engulf her!
Fierce as an Eagle,
She could vision the sun; she could brave the storms,
Until guilt smother her!
Unstoppable as a Volcano,
She could venge nature, she could wreak havoc,
Until love suffocate her!
Powerless as a Human,
She cower, cringe and wince,
Until death succumbs her!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Uncried tears
The last traces of religious beliefs purged out as she decided it to be
But that glooming night, her neck bore back the rosary for whom to see?
Every boulder thrown at her, she let it fall on her, she let it hurt her,
She rose up from the debris.
She lived through it.
The bitter regrets that will never fade away,
The untold promises that will never be kept,
The uncried tears that will never be fathomed,
The kinship that the years will never bring…
She will live through it.
The hugs that comforted her,
The words that emboldened her,
The cries that soothed her,
Nothing can unfold the pain.
Nothing will assuage it to be the same.
She will live through it.
But that glooming night, her neck bore back the rosary for whom to see?
Every boulder thrown at her, she let it fall on her, she let it hurt her,
She rose up from the debris.
She lived through it.
The bitter regrets that will never fade away,
The untold promises that will never be kept,
The uncried tears that will never be fathomed,
The kinship that the years will never bring…
She will live through it.
The hugs that comforted her,
The words that emboldened her,
The cries that soothed her,
Nothing can unfold the pain.
Nothing will assuage it to be the same.
She will live through it.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Other side of coin
Atop the rocky mountain, she stood with austere pleasure of achievement.
Facing the odds of a treacherous journey, she reached the pinnacle of glory.
Discombobulated in the myriad of words, she left her life to the toss of a coin.
The red carpet road was decided and she delusively zipped her bags to go off.
The dawns broke faster, the nights slept rapidly, the day to her fanciful life was jus tomorrow.
But all she saw was the gleaming pride of the man who carried her since her birth.
Somehow that made her flap her wings to the unwilling destination.
The indomitable drive shadowed, her ambition and excitement carried her across the sea.
The wondrous island mystified her and she was upheaved by the change.
Alas, the change took toll otherwise, between struggle of her acumen and heart’s call, only one thought ringed…
Why wasn’t it the other side of the coin??
Facing the odds of a treacherous journey, she reached the pinnacle of glory.
Discombobulated in the myriad of words, she left her life to the toss of a coin.
The red carpet road was decided and she delusively zipped her bags to go off.
The dawns broke faster, the nights slept rapidly, the day to her fanciful life was jus tomorrow.
But all she saw was the gleaming pride of the man who carried her since her birth.
Somehow that made her flap her wings to the unwilling destination.
The indomitable drive shadowed, her ambition and excitement carried her across the sea.
The wondrous island mystified her and she was upheaved by the change.
Alas, the change took toll otherwise, between struggle of her acumen and heart’s call, only one thought ringed…
Why wasn’t it the other side of the coin??
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